Unsent Letters: A Compilation of Taylorians’ Unspoken Words to Their Fathers | By Nafha Abbas
Father's Day is often overshadowed by its seemingly better half, Mother's Day. One reason for this could be that children are often more intimately attached to their mothers as traditionally, fathers play a less emotionally engaged role in parenthood. Fathers are often the primary, if not sole breadwinner of the family. Ergo, they are able to dedicate relatively less time to nurturing their children personally. Not to mention the stoic expectations that society places on men, resulting in alarming numbers of emotionally or physically absent fathers.
While these patriarchal norms seem to be changing for the better, they are still prevalent enough that a significant amount of our relationships with our fathers are burdened with barriers of communication. Hence, this article compiles messages for fathers that children cannot convey to them directly for one reason or the other. While many of these letters express grievances against their fathers, thankfully, there are even more expressing complete adoration and pride in them as well.
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1) Here's to Healing and Forgiving
Dear Dad,
I would like to say that you tried your best but that feels like a lie. Yet I know that you cared, and that you still do.
I've always told myself that I don't mind the way it is between us. We have no emotional connection and yet I know that you care and express it in the ways you know how. Like when you ask me about my health every time we talk in those painfully awkward phone calls. I know you care so I've been fine with it. But sometimes when I see others with their dads - seeing the types of bonds they have, I can't help but feel that pang in my chest. And I wonder whether it could change; maybe we could grow closer if I tried.
So here's to growing closer, I guess! Happy Father's day!
Sincerely,
TL
I Have to Believe
Dear Dad,
I miss you so much. I don't really know what else to say. I just miss you so damn much.
You raised me to be a scientific thinker, to be rational and secular. But how on earth am I supposed to go on believing that you're gone forever?
With love, always,
Nee
2) The Favourite
Dear Papa,
I feel bad sometimes because I know that you're aware that I'm much closer to Mama than I am to you. But you know what, you used to be my favourite. Compared to Mama, I have so many more cherished memories with you from when I was little. I remember the way you always used to brush my hair in a side part, giving me this permanent parting in my hair that I have till this day. Or when you hoisted me over your shoulders in that concert so that I could see them play. And when you would leave drawings for me before you left on your work trips. You're the reason I first got into art, you know? And I still do draw sometimes but I don't think I'm as good as you, not yet. Maybe we could draw together sometime soon? That’d be nice.
I love you,
Kepper
3) Couldn’t Ask for More
Dear Dad,
I'm so proud of you and I admire you so much that disappointing you is one of my biggest fears. But I know that you'd still love me anyway.
Happy Father's day!
I couldn't ask for more from a dad, you're the best!!!
Lots of love,
Hugh Mungus
4) With Patience
Dear Dad,
I wish I was more comfortable talking to you about these things because then I could tell you that, honestly, I'm a little bit disappointed in you. But to be even more honest, I'm actually very disappointed in you.
You have to do better. I don't hate you. And I'm not angry. But you must do better. I know you're trying but it's high time you realise that the ways you're trying haven't worked out for you and you need to change. Please.
With patience,
Your youngest
5) Visit Me in My Dreams
Dear Papa,
Happy Father's Day! In 5 months time, it will be our fifth year without you by our side. Although once in a while, I still cry whenever I think about you and how you can’t be here to witness me grow up, but I'll always stay strong and remind myself that you are always here in spirit. There were so many unsaid words and no last goodbyes that left me empty for a long time. If I had known that that would be our last meal together, I would have showered you with more love and affection. Thank you for being the best dad ever. Without your hard work and perseverance, we wouldn't be able to make it this far today. Even though we didn't say it last time, we know how many sacrifices you have made and how stressful work was for you, all just to make sure we were living well. I know it's already too late to say this, but I miss you a lot... and if possible, I would love for you to visit me in my dreams and hug me with warmth again. I love you papa, forever and always ❤️
Sincerely,
Your one and only daughter
6) I Stand Corrected... I’m Sorry
Dear Dad,
Even though I've never expressed it to you in any way, I had a very skewed and negative impression of you for a long time. I have now realised that that's because I didn't have the full picture at hand. I have come to learn a lot more about you the past few days and I feel horrible and stupid for allowing my opinion of you to be so manipulated. I'm truly sorry. You're not completely blameless, but for what you are to be blamed, I now know that you tried your best. And I can respect and appreciate that much.
Sincerely,
V
7) What You Have Taught Me
Father,
Thank you for showing me all the qualities I would not want in a man. You have taught me that love is not real, that I was a fool to think it could actually exist between the both of us. Maybe you deserve a better child. Maybe you weren't ready to be a father. We will never know now.
Sincerely,
A bitter child
We hope that the writers, the children of these fathers with unreceived letters, have found some comfort in expressing their feelings here. There is a bittersweet catharsis in writing down your woes and sending it out into the world, regardless of whether or not it reaches its addressed recipient. At the very least, it has reached many a sympathetic ear.
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The positive letters here, while endearing, are also wistful in their own ways. It is a pity that some of these writers have no way of sending the messages to their dear fathers who have passed. As for the rest, we can only hope that they can one day find the courage to openly appreciate their fathers. After all, what good does it do to love and adore someone in silence?
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